5nl

    i had a tilting start to the day. i was up. started playing the regular tables again.
it was going well until, once again, the hammer fell.
AKss < QQ aip / AKo < AA in a three handed semi-deep euro game v a lag... etc. 
standard things began to tilt me. run bad. i just haven't felt like i can get any fuego goin'.
blah blah blah......
...so i decided to hop off and went to the pool to relax and get some sun.

chillin' out maxin' relaxin' all cool when i remembered where i was before i started playin' poker...

  some things were good, but on the monetary/job front i was 20k in debt calling BK lawyers and getting denied entry level jobs. like, stupid shit... my last job app/ was for a pizza joint slangin' beer and za.. even after having worked in a dozen+ restaurants (both mom and pops places and classier places) and getting called back for a second interview (lol).. denied.

"sorry, we don't think you're qualified to ask if they want miller lite or bud light, pepperoni or sausage." 



    i've had thirty+ jobs in my life.. like i've mentioned before i've worked a lot in restaurants, and a ton of random jobs.. helped all my friends in the trades like demo, electric, carpentry, installing floors/ tiles, roofing, worked overnights unloading trucks and stocking, you name it. i even you used to bum hunt 'paid training' ads for extra cash. but after getting denied there i felt fucked. i've never been one for the workplace.. i've always had my mind on music.. i loathed ninety percent of the jobs i've ever held. dealing with bosses that need to take off their shoes to do math, dress codes, dealing with the public, waking up in general. the list goes on and on. i really didn't have any ideas. being a starving artist was kind of the plan.

     so i had a $200 gc that i put on pstars. it was the last money i had(.) my ex-gf asked me if i wanted a guitar for my bday or that for stars... being a degen and having a couple acoustics lying around i said, 'let it ride'. all of my cc's were maxed out and was lacking income. after a night of playing i had $36 to my name. turns out it isn't the smartest thing to play 100nl with $200.. especially when you don't know what the hell you're doing. so, i had to make it last. i started grinding 5nl. long sessions.  yada yada yada. i live in mexico.

    i don't want to go into too much detail. you get the gist. i had one of those '...and i never looked back' stories that have led me here. (i'd also like to mention that my bro helped me out a ton getting started.. somewhat reluctantly as he knew how brutal the game is.. some of you may know him as 'ur_suspect') .... and even though i am by no means a baller, never had a big tourney cashes etc., poker has gotten me through the day to day and i'm very blessed to have found it. as tilting as it can be from time to time, i remembered, looking at the view, where i was and where grinding 5nl got me. it paid off all my debts, paid all my living expenses for years, several vacations including maui, vegas a few times, and la; new computer and musical equipment, helped me live in vegas and toronto after BF, and now it's taken me to a beautiful condo in cabo san lucas while i try to rebuild after that fiasco. it always helps me to think about those things through the tough times on stars... and i thought i'd share that witchas.

ispew1225

Stars $0.50/$1

BTN: $48.50
SB: $104.88
BB: $101.00
UTG: $144.95
Hero (UTG+1): $113.20

UTG+2: $100.00
MP1: $198.29
MP2: $100.00
CO: $122.02

Pre Flop: ($1.50) Hero is UTG+1 with 8 4
1 fold, Hero raises to $2.20,
  
1 fold, MP1 calls $2.20, 5 folds

Flop: ($5.90) J A 7 (2 players)
Hero bets $3, MP1 calls $3

Turn: ($11.90) 6 (2 players)
Hero bets $17,


MP1 raises to $42,  


Hero raises to $108 all in,

MP1 calls $66

River: ($227.90) T (2 players - 1 is all in)


Final Pot: $227.90
Hero shows 8 4 (a flush, Ace high)
MP1 shows A A (three of a kind, Aces)
Hero wins $225.10

oct.

so october is wrappin' up..
had a bad month.. dug my way out of a 3k DS.. not all the way, but still made some cash post-RB.
Rb pro this month yet again... i feel like i made some bad adjustments in the beginning, running super nitty.. then over compensated by running super laggy.. and recently i feel like i remembered what the fuck i should be doing again. the game is a constant adjustment. it's a moving target. it's jazz. and having remembered that, disregarding the numbers and simply focusing on making good decisions, the numbers starting to reflect the stats i was putting up when i was crushin'. so i'm happy about that and looking forward to next month.

i finished the 150k/200k hand prop so as not to dump a grand there. don't see myself doing anymore of those any time soon. the added pressure really isn't needed and can be somewhat of a hindrance. next year i think i'm going to get off the vpp train and only 8-16 table and try to table select/ shot take more often. but that's next year... i still need to put in a lot of hands this year to hit 500k vpps to make sure i ship a couple more bonuses and a milestone. don't wanna leave that money on the table.

***

done playing zoom too.
 
kinda crazy to have quads that often in one month. at least it seemed like an abnormal occurrence.

i put in about 100k hands in the first ten days, but after running like shit i chilled out and chipped away at the second 100k. in the midst of the grind i also found time to grind one of my favorite games from growing up... the legend that is zelda.





the ocd in me had to beat both quests.
gamer nerds will understand.

cool game, dude.

having a shit go of it this month.
... yep.



' ... and worse i may be yet: the worst
  is not
so long as we can say "This is the worst".' - edgar

finished king lear last week. some run bad quotes.

'... to be worst,
the lowerst and most dejected thing of fortune,
stands still in esperance, lives not in fear:
the lamentable change is from the best,
the worst returns to laughter.' -edgar

just filtered for zoom:


the 'all in pre with queens' graph turned into the southern oracle from the never ending story somehow.





~150k hands
~stuck ~3k

nineteenth

100NL
FR

BTN: $100.00
SB: $50.00
BB: $53.34
UTG: $100.00
UTG+1: $118.68
Hero (UTG+2): $298.12

MP1: $51.71
MP2: $62.72
CO: $589.33


Pre Flop: ($1.50) Hero is UTG+2 with
2 folds, Hero raises to $3, 1 fold, MP2 calls $3, CO calls $3, 1 fold, SB calls $2.50, 1 fold

Flop: ($13.00) 8 7 3 (4 players)
SB checks, Hero bets $9, MP2 folds, CO calls $9, SB folds

Turn: ($31.00) 7 (2 players)
Hero bets $24, CO raises to $58,
 
Hero calls $34

River: ($147.00) Q (2 players)
Hero checks, CO bets $103, CO says "i have nutz",

Hero calls $103

Final Pot: $353.00
Hero shows K K (two pair, Kings and Sevens)
CO shows A T (a pair of Sevens)
Hero wins $350.20

problemos?

50 NL
FR 

BTN: $62.26
Hero (SB): $51.00
 

BB: $47.61


UTG: $67.96
UTG+1: $49.66
UTG+2: $25.75
MP1: $56.63
MP2: $50.00
CO: $31.00

Pre Flop: ($0.75) Hero is SB with 5 J
7 folds, Hero raises to $1.10, BB calls $0.60

Flop: ($2.20) J A 5 (2 players)
Hero bets $49.90 all in,
 

BB calls $46.51 all in
BB shows A K
 

Turn: ($95.22) 4

River: ($95.22) J

Final Pot: $95.22
Hero shows 5 J (a full house, Jacks full of Fives)
BB shows A K (two pair, Aces and Jacks)
Hero wins $92.72